My sweet friend Gretchen sent me this email and I just had to share it with all the mommies. You might have read it before, but I hadn’t.

By the time the Lord made woman,

He was into his sixth day of working overtime.

An angel appeared and said,

‘Why are you spending so much time on this one?’

And the Lord answered, ‘Have you seen my spec sheet on

her?She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,

have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable  and able to

run on diet coke and  leftovers, have a lap that can hold

four children at one  time, have a kiss that can cure

anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart and she


do everything  with only two hands.’

The angel was astounded at the requirements.

‘Only two hands!? No way!

And that’s just on the standard model?

That’s too much work for one day.

Wait until tomorrow to finish.’

‘But I won’t, ‘ the Lord protested.

‘I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close

to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is


AND can work 18 hour days.’

The angel moved closer and touched the woman.

‘But you have made her so soft, Lord.’

‘She is soft,’ the Lord agreed, ‘but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish.’

‘Will she be able to think?’, asked the angel.

The Lord replied,

‘Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to

reason and negotiate.’

The angel then noticed something, and reaching out,


the woman’s cheek.  ‘Oops, it looks like you have a leak


this model.  I told you that you were trying to put too


into this  one.’

‘That’s not a leak,’ the Lord corrected, ‘that’s a


‘What’s the tear for?’ the angel asked.

The Lord said, ‘The tear is her way of expressing her


her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her

loneliness, her grief and her pride.’

The angel was impressed.

‘You are a genius, Lord.

You thought of everything!

Woman is truly amazing.’

And she is!

Women have strengths that amaze men.

They bear hardships

and they carry burdens,

but they hold happiness,

love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream.

They sing when they want to cry.

They cry when they are happy  ;

and laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in.

They stand up to injustice.

They don’t take ‘no’ for an answer when

they believe there is a better solution.

They go without so their family can have.

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel and cheer when their

friends get awards.   They are happy when they hear


birth or a wedding.  Their hearts break when a friend


They grieve at the loss of a family member,

yet they are strong when they think there is no strength

left.    They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a


heart.  Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.

They’ll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how


they care about you.  The heart of a woman is what makes


world keep turning  They bring joy, hope and love.

They have compassion and ideals.

They give moral support to their family and friends.

Women have vital things to say and everything to give





Just a reminder that we were made by God and he gives us the strength to endure and a heart to love. Thanks for sharing, Gretchen. I love you, girl.


Happy New Year!

I wish that I could express how thankful I am that 08 is over. This last year was full of tears, heartache, stress, sleepless nights, & fear of the future. I will admit that I still feel some of that, but I know that God’s hand is still holding us and that gives me a calm in my heart. We did get some great news today. Jackson has been cleared by the pulminologist and he is negative for sleep apnea, and his oxygen levels are normal. What a great way to start out the new year. I swear, I wanted to start doing the happy dance right there in the doctors office.

So, I have been doing some thinking about what I am looking forward to this year. Here are my thoughts for the new year.

  • I am looking forward to a great year with my ladies at Mops.
  • I am hopeful that this year Jackson will continue to develop and we will get his seizures under control.
  • I look forward to watching Josiah play soccer. He is my soccer star.
  • I have a great group of ladies doing a bible study with me and am excited to get to know and hang out them more.
  • Josiah will go to school this year and I’m terrified.
  • I hope that our house sells and we get to move closer to children’s hospital, Grace, and our friends.
  • I hope that we grow closer as a family and have more quality time.
  • I really want to spend more time with my hubby and work on growing closer.
  • I want to be a better wife, mommy, and friend.
  • I want to learn how to cook well. 🙂

Overall, I want to be a better person and really focus on my family and friends. Through all of the things we have faced this last year, God has been faithful, and truly held our hands. He has put amazing people in our lives that have blessed us beyond measure. I look to this year with faith and hope that this season has ended and we are standing on the mountain instead of camping out in the valley.  Happy New Year!

Ok, if you read my hubbies blog then you will understand why I have neglected writing about our crazy life. Just when I feel that I’m getting a handle on things, someone else has a different plan. I wish I knew why I am being delt the hand I am holding. I guess in time I will. I have to say that living in the valley in no fun. It is full worry, sleepless nights, anxiotiy, and frustration. I am sure that counciling is in my future.

Anyway, life goes on and we are gearing up for the holidays. I are headed to Missouri next week to see our families and have alittle break. It will be short but worth it. My mom’s home cooking, going to great grandpa’s farm to see the cows, seeing my brother and sister, and getting to see Dan’s side of the family as well. I one thing I dread is the drive with the kiddos. We are driving at night so hopefully they will sleep.

I am excited about a ladies small group that we are starting in Dec. I know that the timing is odd, but we have been working on getting everyone together for so long that we wanted to meet before the new year. Here is the study we are doing.

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I just love Beth Moore. I saw her a couple of years ago at a Ministers wives conference she did and it was amazing. She talked about fear and it was just what I needed. I was a new mom at the time and she really spoke to my heart. I am excited to go through this study of Esther with my girls. I really need to feed my mind and heart after the last 15 months of just struggling through everyday

Well, its been a rough month for me as a mother. I am emotionally exhausted and second guessing decisions that I’ve made. I never imagined that having a family would be this hard and rewarding all at the same time. I love my family. I can’t imagine my life without my three wonderful boys. The journey that we’ve been on this last year and six months has been very stressful and alot of tears.

Jackson is doing great. We finally see his personality back and is trying to run and climb everywhere. The most important this is he is sleeping through the night and is breathing so much better. Dan and I are constantly checking him though, we are so used to him being so loud. Something that we will have to get used to. We have already seen God work though Jackson having this surgery done. A family in the church reached out to us in our time of need and we were able to help them find doctors and give advice on what we just went though. Ok God, I understand our journey.

Josiah is the one that I am now worry about. Tonight I realized that he is hurting more than I thought. We have tried so hard to make sure he felt that he was as important as Jackson. Tonight Josiah put himself to bed and was upset for some reason. I started a conversation with him to find out that we was worried Jackson would have to go back to the hospital. I was on the verge of tear because I realized that he was scared that something might happen to his brother. Josiah has seen him have a full out sezier, has seen him and his mommy in an ambulance, and three trips to the er. I wish that I could have protected him from being a part of those times, but I can’t. Now I have to try to reassure him that mommy and daddy will always protect and be there for them every minute of every day.Life has been in overdrive since we moved to Tx. I know that God has us here for many reasons, and I am just trying to keep moving forward. I am involved in more now than ever before, and I think that is what keeps me sane. I am thankful for wonderful family and friends that have held our throughout this season is our life. I will say that I am ready for a new season. Thanks be to Christ who has carried us though and will continue to hold our hands. I will continue to look ahead to the future and be grateful for everyday with my family. I love these two. If you have any tips on how to handle the situation with Josiah I would love to hear them. I love Josiah so much and want him to have piece of mind and most of all just be a kid. Thanks for letting me write this if nothing more than to process things.

I’m sorry that it has taken me this long to update this. I have kinda left it up to my hubby to fill everyone in, so check his blog because he writes everyday.

Jackson is doing as well as he can at this point. We are on day 12 and still have painful moments and or hours. I called the ENT today to see if what Jackson was experiencing was normal and they said yes. It takes about three weeks for the pain to go away and things to get back to normal. So, we just have to make it though this week and hopefully he will feel better.

Once again, I want to say Thank You to all of you who prayed for Jackson and us through all of this. It really means the world to us to know that we have such a great support system. My sweet friend Kerri texted us at 5:30 the morning of his surgery to tell us that God woke her up to pray for Jackson. Little did she know that the moment I received that they had taken Jackson out of my arms to go into surgery. Our God is a big God and am so thankful for wonderful godly women who strenghten and encourage me more than they know. I love you all.

I got the call this morning that Jackson will have surgery on Thursday.  They diagnosed him with Central and Obstructive sleep apnea. So to take care of the obstructive portion they are going to take out his tonsils and adenoids. As for the Central apnea we are back at the neurologist. The ENT said that the central apena was very mild so we are hoping for the best. Please just keep Jackson in your prayers and pray for our ENT on Thursday. Also, please pray for nana’s safe trip back down to TX. This has quickly become her second home. We will keep you all posted. Thanks so much.

Well, I’m in between loads of laundry, Dan & Joe are watching TX football, & Jackson is down for a nap, so I thought that I would update you on the craziness that has been our life. I know most of you who read my blog also read Dans so I am not going to re live the last week. If you don’t know whats going on please go to Dan’s blog.

Right now we are in the waiting game with the results from the sleep study two nights ago. We are hoping that they will be able to determine why it is that he stops breathing when he sleep. In the mean time, Dan and I are in survival mode. We are trying to take turns sleeping, but we are both so drained that we are having a hard time. I am going to have to look into some Red bull or something to stay awake. I just cant’ do it on my own anymore. My fear is that I will doze off and Jackson will stop breathing for too long. I tried to get a monitor to bring home that would alert us if he stopped breathing but they say at this point he is not stopping long enough to go through the hassle. I am not sure that I agree but there’s not much I can do at this point but try to be patient.

I want to personally say Thank YOU  to everyone that has been praying for him and us. Also, all of the kind words and encouragement. It really means a lot to us. We are here without our family and right now is when we need them the most. They have been here to help but they also have jobs and lives to get back to.  We know that God called us here to serve him and have been so blessed by the church and the people in it, but it is hard sometimes to deal with whats been put on our shoulders. I am trying to look at all the positives but the daily struggles are overwhelming. I know my God is a big God and will not give us more than we can handle but I’m not sure that i can handle much more.

Please your continued prayer would be a huge blessing and I know we will get though this season even though the end of the season seems no where in sight.